Day One Hundred and Seventy Eight: AA meeting

I spoke at my first AA meeting tonight. I was really nervous because I still don't believe I'm an alcoholic at times, until I start daydreaming about early morning tequila, than I know other people don't drink that in the morning to get their day to a good start. I was able to focus and deliver a clear message so I felt pretty good about my share. I find that I have more and more in common with my outpatient group and I like that. I just wish that I wanted to stay clean. I'm still in that zone of wanting to use. I learned that I can focus and help people with my qualification. I also learned that life continues to be challenging in terms of not using.