Day 7: Orange is the New Black

After a massive workout this morning I treated myself to Season 2 of the Netflix hit Orange is The New Black. I can't believe I watched the entire season over this weekend but I had such a good time watching my favorite characters and learning more back stories. I love this show. A great way to close out my weekend. Even though I'm staying up a little too late its totally worth it. It really makes me happy to watch a show with so many talented minority actresses. I love their work. Totally inspired today.

Day 6: 72 Hour Film Shoot

I've just started getting back into the swing of wanting to act again. Yesterday I started looking on the casting sites again and submitting myself for auditions. I am shocked that this day has come back, I guess I've never really lost my love of the craft. Things have started to pick up for me and this weekend I helped my friend Migina with a 72 hour film contest. It was nice to be around creative energy. I also had a chance to talk with my friend about life and got some inspiration in terms of working on projects that make me feel good and getting fulfillment from doing things for me. I know what I want and I don't want to jinx it so when its moving i'll start to share.

Day 5: Thank God It's Friday

This has been the week from hell. I have been exhausted all week running around trying to go to auditions, going to work, interviewing at other jobs, and doing my play; I have been burning the candle down to the wick. So I was really excited to have this week come to a close and finally get a little bit of rest. I have never been so thrilled to have the work week be over. Lately everyone has been telling me that I need to slow down, but sometimes its so hard for me stop. I always am thinking of how I need to be doing something and today I can recognize that. I look at myself and the progress that I have made in the last years and I can really say I am grateful today that I can actually see things that I'm doing. Thank God It's Friday.

Day 4: Sitcom Heaven

I love watching old 80's and 90's sitcoms and now that Designing Women has been airing on Logo, I've been in heaven. After rehearsal I came home and got to kick back with a little sitcom therapy. I don't know what it is about these old shows but they remind me of a happier time in my life where I just could laugh and not be at a ten most of the time. Suzanne Sugarbaker is my new muse. It is so incredible how Delta Burke embodied that character I just can't get enough. Today I allowed myself to relax and slowly I'm getting better at not beating myself up for taking a break. Today I am still learning it's okay to take some time to myself.

Day 3: Kicking Off the Summer

So today was the start of the summer concert series in Brooklyn's Prospect Park and the headliner was the soul songstress Janelle Monet. I rushed home after work, packed me a liquid picnic with a side of salmon and kale, and headed to meet up with a Brooklyn based meet up group so I could enjoy the concert with some fellow music lovers. The line to get in was crazy cookoo bananas, luckily my group settled outside the gate, the view wasn't great but the company was cool. The best part was that I met some cool people. I'm at this transition phase where a lot of my friends have moved away or moved on with their lives and even though I am comfortable spending a lot of time with myself sometimes I get lonely. Sometimes I miss having a best friend that lives here just hanging out watching TV, playing a game of Mall Madness or Super Mario Brothers, and having tequila and tacos on a random night. At first I wasn't feeling it, but I'm happy that I stayed and got a chance to meet a bunch of different people. Summertime is starting to look up, keeping my fingers crossed and inviting positive energy into my life.

Day 2:Endless Possibilities

I've been obsessed with pole dancing for the past 10 years and I really want to become an instructor, working for someone else that is. As I've gotten older I realized that I would much rather be an independent contractor than have my own business with employees. I like to work alone, but I don't want to have to be in control of everything. Today my pole dancing studio had an assessment for their teacher training program and I went. I was extremely nervous, especially after not getting adequate rest I was worried that I wouldn't be able to do any of the exercising. I was surprised that I was able to do a lot of the tricks and it was fun and it really is making me reconsider my thoughts about if the opportunity presents itself finding a way to make it happen. I felt guilty about going because its a lot of money, that I don't even have, to attend the program but when I found out that they only do it on an need basis I thought why not give it a go. I've been so worried about saving money that I forgot to look at this as a possible opportunity to do something that I love to do as a possible career. Today I learned how to let go, just a little bit, to see something from a different perspective. That's crazy since it's only day 2.

False Start: Day One For Real- Childhood Playdate

So today I went to Bryant Park to compete in a friendly game of musical chairs. The grand prize was two plane tickets,unfortunately I didn't win but I did walk away with a free t-shirt. I thought I would be ultra competitive but in reality I ended up just playing the game and when I got out I didn't fight it. I lasted pretty long though up until round six. I guess I wasn't really too hard up for those plane tickets to fight to the death, but it was really interesting to see everyone's strategy how they would hover over the chairs or walk really slowly. By the end of the day I was just a little too tired to keep competing. It was nice to get my favorite season, free summer events, kicked off in this manner. I now know that I want to have a good time really getting to know myself and giving myself the childhood that I wanted in my adulthood. This day has taught me how to take care of myself. I now give myself permission to enjoy the day like I was a kid again.